Life is Like a FiLm..

the bottom pit

2011-01-12T10:21:00.003+08:00

I woke up today with both my eyes swelling terribly..
My head hurts. My heart hurts.
Im not in the right state of mind. and i duno what's gonna happen.
Even if i think it's, i dn want it to happen.
Just tell me that it's just a DREAM. :(

Oh Allah, please guide me through these difficult time of my life.
Show me the path. Forgive me of my wrong doings. Lead me to be someone better.
And help me keep that special someone safe.

Insyallah.

Ramadhan

2010-08-20T13:01:00.003+08:00

Time check: 1.00 pm

So here i am waiting for zuhur. and TODAY'S friday :)
i will be going out later to meet my poly mates..
then buke tgt at zam2 maybe?

I've been communicating with Allah a lot lately. He knows how i feel.
sometimes, i just wana be alone..
i wana weep my ass off. im scared :'(
and i duno why im scared.. I need you Allah..

truth is, im lost and i haven found me yet..
gues i've been living in disguise.
trying to please others when i myself aint happy.
when i finally show how i feel, they wont like it..

Oh Allah, give me strength and guide me to the right path..
Make this Ramadhan a bless and meaningful one for me, my family,my loved ones n frens.
Give us courage and accept our ibadah.
Amin.

Insyallah everything will be alright :)

Life basically is how it is :'(

2010-07-13T23:39:00.002+08:00

It's the last semester of academic year for me..
Very soon, it be attachment and by then, i shall dump my books aside.
No examinations, no more practicals with my coursemates and no more having to sit in lecture hall for hours to absorb heavy theory stuff.

The sad thing is, this sem is killing me.. Im such a failure and i feel lousy.
PATHETIC.. I just shuck at everything this sem.
I duno what happen to the OLD mardiana who entered Poly a few years back.
I duno what she wants in life anymore..
OMG, i am so lost.. Im falling apart..
I duno..I duno..I duno..I duno..

nvm, you wont understand..
shall cry myself to sleep today.
Hopefully when i wake up tmr, i feel so much better :)

19th birthday

2010-06-09T07:18:00.003+08:00

SEE THE DATE TODAY!!!!

yes, it's 9 june..
Time check, 7.18am :)

about 19 years ago, i were still in my mother's womb waiting to be delivered into the world.
and today, I thank Allah that im stil alive. I thank Allah for giving me my family and the people around me.

On my birthday today, i wont ask for anything because i have everything already.
i don reali need a celebration, i don need a big cake, i don need gifts and balloons. i don need flowers. i don need all that.

All i need is ____.

Anyway, i just wana Thank everyone who wished me:) Thank you so much!!
May God bless you people always.
TO my dearest CAMFUGS [buva fatin shir fitriah khaizurah] Thank You for giving me an advance birthday surprise. It was reali sweet of you guys reali. hehe

LASTLY, MY TWIN TURNS A YEAR OLDER TODAY too :)

DEAREST NORHAZWANI HAMDAN,
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO US!! HEHE I LOVE YOU BABE <3

blog :(

2010-05-30T18:10:00.003+08:00

im ditching you..

wait i don think im ditching you yet blogger..
but i want you to know, im two timing you :(
sorry..

anyway...
LIFE is okay so far. Alhamdulillah.
I thank Allah for everything and whatever he gives now, is temporary.
So make use of it in a good way and appreciate.

btw, MUM gives me the green light. but i have to prove to her first..
Insyallah, i can achieve that dream of mine :) Amin.

:(

2010-04-12T21:59:00.004+08:00

mum was right...

she said i may have looked firm, strong and fierce on the outside but truth is...

im QUITE weak.. :(

but i know when things aint going right, im never giving up..

LIFE :)

HOLIDAYS :)

2010-04-09T12:31:00.003+08:00

HOLIDAYS HAVE BEEN A BLAST!!
(which i will update soon if i have the time that is.. )

and it's the best holiday ever! surprisingly, i used it to the fullest..
like what zak said the other day, ' Wahhh kau enjoy giler siak ni holiday.'
ahaha..

not even once did i complain about rotting at home.. :D
that's an accomplishment..
coz i noe that after year 3 sem1, i will be having a week of holiday
before attachment. -.-"
PATHETIC RIGHT?

you guys take care aite..

facebook-.-

2010-04-06T21:05:00.001+08:00

FACEBOOK IS AN ULTIMATE BITCH !!!

THEY BLOCKED MY FRIENDS WITHOUT MY CONSENT.
THEY REJECT THE PEOPLE WHO JUST ACCEPTED ME AS FRIENDS.
THEY DELETE MY CLOSE FRIENDS ON MY FRIENDS LIST.

FCUK !!!

i just feel like saying this

2010-04-01T15:07:00.001+08:00

~Kata dulang paku serpih, mengata orang dia yang lebih..

and i like the way buva say,
~siapa makan cili, dia lah yang terasa pedas..

2010-03-30T09:35:00.002+08:00

you fuck

2010-03-30T09:33:00.002+08:00

OUTCAST YOURSELF WHEN YOU FEEL

OUTCASTED..

~ anonymous

random

2010-03-12T11:07:00.006+08:00

in 2hrs time, im gona get ready for tuition:)
then i'll be off to meet my band peeps awhile at town area..
if the plan works tat is..

a week of holiday has just passed and i rmb the times i studied real hard for exams..
how i mugged till dawn.. how i fell asleep on my desk..
how my mum prepared me milo and biscuits..
and all that was like 5 weeks back?
finally it's OVER:)
so anyway..
studying for 7 paper is a killer i tell you..

IMMUNOLOGY.. MEDICAL MICROBIOLOGY.. BIOINFORMATICS..
BIOPROCESS TECHNOLOGY.. MARKETING.. MOLECULAR GENETICS..
PROTEIN TECHNOLOGY..

This mindmap has 10 microorganism specified with it following properties and mechanisms.

Plus another 4 microorganism-.-"

and another 3 microorganism..

and another 4 ...but wait, there are still more mindmaps like these which i have to memorise..
all that is just 30% of the whole paper.. -.-"

so just like every one else, i was literally dying my heart content...
SO MUCH FOR SAYING POLY IS SLACK PLACE..

anyway, i got to meet these lovely bunch on the 26th Feb right after my BPT paper..

ooh and im really sorry Fana for not being able to celebrate ur 19th with you..
really sorry.. anyway, HAPPY BELATED 19TH BIRTHDAY!!
i'll make up to you aite babe :)

and when exams ended last week, CAMFUGS release stress in wonderland:)
the show was okay but i dozed off a few scenes..

Fatin's Birthday falls on the 5th March..
her family secretly plan with us to suprise her at BREEKS..
sweet right her family..
Thank you Fatin's mum and dad for the treat..

and on saturday night, my frens and i participated in OCBC CYCLE..
wait, we volunteered..

that's all... busy busy busy week..

DISAPPOINTED

2010-03-12T10:33:00.003+08:00

one word to describe the whole situation:

DISAPPOINTED..

my mum once told me that we should never praise someone so much
coz you'll never know if that person might take a change..
i mean in this world, NOBODY IS PERFECT..

but funny how it seems that person was so true to his words..
his dignity, his IMAN..whenever im around him, i feel so wrong..
i still rmb how much every one saluted him..
now, it's just so different..
i least expect him to be how he is now..

HE LOST.. HE LOST HIS INNER SELF SOMEWHERE..
HE LOST FAITH:(
and im disappointed but im nowhere to judge him..
but i noe i can pray for him, Insyallah with God's guidance,
he will change for the better.. Amin

ORIANTHI

2010-03-11T10:25:00.004+08:00

According To You lyrics
by Orianthi :)

I'm stupid I'm useless
I can't do anything right

According to you, I'm difficult,Hard to please
Forever changing my mind
I'm a mess in a dress
Can't show up on time
Even if it would save my life
According to you. According to you

But according to him
I'm beautiful, incredible
He can't get me out of his head
According to him
I'm funny,irresistible
Everything he ever wanted
Everything is opposite
I don't feel like stopping it
So baby tell me what I got to lose
He's into me for everything I'm not
According to you

According to you.I'm boring .I'm moody
You can't take me any place

According to you
I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away
I'm the girl with the worst attention span
You're the boy who puts up with it
According to you.According to you

But according to him
I'm beautiful,incredible
He can't get me out of his head

According to him
I'm funny, irresistible
Everything he ever wanted
Everything is opposite
I don't feel like stopping it
So baby tell me what I got to lose
He's into me for everything I'm not
According to you

I need to feel appreciated
like I'm not hated
Oh, no
Why can't you see me through his eyes?
It's too bad you're making me dizz-ay

According to me
you're stupid
you're useless
you can't do anything right

But according to him
I'm beautiful, incredible
He can't get me out of his head

According to him
I'm funny, irresistible
Everything he ever wanted
Everything is opposite
I don't feel like stopping it
Baby tell me what I got to lose
He's into me for everything I'm not
According to you [you, you]
According to you [you, you]

According to you.I'm stupid.I'm useless
I can't do anything right

~Even if i lose a few friends along the way,
it doesn't matter as long as i have you by my side..

cute song

2010-02-13T20:15:00.003+08:00

DEDICATED TO YOU <3

if you peeps haven heard of this, you should..
cute song, one of my faves actually :)

Brighter Than Sunshine- Aqualung

I never understood before.
I never knew what love was for.
My heart was broke, my head was sore -
What a feeling.

Tied up in ancient history,
I didnt believe in destiny.
I look up, you're standing next to me -
What a feeling.

What a feeling in my soul -
Love burns brighter than sunshine,
Brighter than sunshine.
Let the rain fall, I don't care.
I'm yours, and suddenly you're mine.
Suddenly, you're mine;
And it's brighter than sunshine.

I never saw it happening.
I'd given up and given in.
I just couldn't take the hurt again -
What a feeling.

I didn't have the strength to fight.
Suddenly, you seemed so right.
Me and you -
What a feeling.

What a feeling in my soul -
Love burns brighter than sunshine.
It's brighter than sunshine.
Let the rain fall, I don't care.
I'm yours, and suddenly you're mine.
Suddenly, you're mine.

And it's brighter than the sun.
It's brighter than the sun.
It's brighter than the sun, sunshine.

Love will remain a mystery,
But give me your hand, and you will see.
Your heart is keeping time with me.

What a feeling in my soul -
Love burns brighter than sunshine.
It's brighter than sunshine.
Let the rain fall, I don't care.
I'm yours, and suddenly you're mine.
Suddenly, you're mine.

I got a feeling in my soul.
Love burns brighter than sunshine,
Brighter than sunshine.
Let the rain fall, I don't care.
I'm yours, and suddenly you're mine.
Suddenly, you're mine.

I got a feeling in my soul.
Love burns brighter than sunshine.
It's brighter than sunshine.
Let the rain fall, I don't care.
I'm yours, and suddenly you're mine.
Suddenly, you're mine.
And it's brighter than sunshine.

:)

2010-02-09T00:46:00.003+08:00

I MISS...

i miss moon and star gazing with you just like the other day..

i miss sitting at the park, watching people jog.. at the same time,
make you laff with me acting like some cannot-make-it comedian..

i miss walking along the same route home with you..

i miss how you would poke fun at me..

i miss how you play with my nose.. yeah..

actually, i just miss being around you..

by yours truly :)

MUSE IS LOVED

2010-02-09T00:25:00.002+08:00

hello peeps... been awhile since i last update..
anyway...

there's nothing new about my life..
just that i manage to watch MUSE CONCERT LIVE last wednesday..3rd FEB 2010!!
IT WAS AWESOME all thanks to Kak Rhoyze who splurged her money on me and my sis tix..
Thank you so much.. i had lots of fun realli :) i so love you.. <3

and till today, MUSE songs are like playing in my head..

ooh damn it.. IM NOT OVER THEM YET..

1. Uprising
2. Supermassive Black Hole
3. Map of the Problematique
4. Resistance
5. Interlude + Hysteria
6. Stockholm Syndrome
7. Nishe
8. United States of Eurasia
9. Sunburn
10. Undisclosed Desires
11. MK ULTRA
12. Starlight
13. Time Is Running Out
14. Unnatural Selection
Encore
15. Exogenesis: Symphony Part I (Overture)
16. Plug In Baby
17. Man with a Harmonica intro + Knights of Cydonia

~waiting for MUSE in the indoor stadium..

~MATT BELLAMY is just so adorable with his guitar..
if only he had played more on the piano :(

~ i wana do this again !!! headbang like no business and just
rock on like a star.. -.-"

~ i bet those who came did regret this at all :)

okay im done.. EXAMS just around the corner and
i reali reali reali reali need time to push my lousy grades up..
seriously.. which means i need to put aside all the fun things..
the test last month is enough to give me a wake up call and God, i don want any repeat..

so will be on hiatus from now till after 4th march..
last paper ;) wish me the best okay..
and you too ..

just being random

2010-02-04T17:58:00.002+08:00

you know...

just the littlest thing you do to me either makes me smile a lot or
saddens me deeply..

so which is your take?

i just hate everyone

2010-01-13T22:13:00.003+08:00

if only i can kill myself right now and restart life..

IF ONLY ..

if only i can isolate myself from every one and pretend i didn't know them at all..

IF ONLY..

if only i can be invisible..

IF ONLY..

if only, if only, if only..........

but too bad life's isn't going that way round..

:)

don let me go

2010-01-04T04:18:00.002+08:00

thanks for being so patient with me..
i know how annoying/irritating/troublesome/difficult/etc i can be yet
you stay put throughout..
thank you so much for bearing all my crap..
thank you thank you thank you..

~she let go of the orange balloon and eventually someone surprises her with another red one:)

2010

2010-01-01T23:51:00.003+08:00

ZOMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG....

2010 already??

*faints*

May God bless you people out there..Amin..

~now i know how she feels... it's just inevitable :(

:)

2009-12-30T00:02:00.000+08:00

~ you're the reason that i smile a lot :)

smile and be contented..

2009-12-26T19:16:00.004+08:00

lappy is undergoing the surgery and hopefully he'll be back by monday :)
you know, i swear i almost fainted when the repairman quoted the price..
btw thanks Nuruddin for your help, seriously i was just lost..
Thank you so much!! i owe you one..
~
and sorry to you peeps that i din attend the meet up:(
yes i miss you ppl a lot..[vincent, sue, haz, danny,ritz]
next time okay..
~
i swear im missing buva and fit.. next it be shir's turn to go overseas..
come back soon aite you guys..
have a safe safe trip..
~
tuition todae was awesome :)
i just love the family andthe kid's mum is very nice..
hehe..
~
ooh yeah, this is random..
but i think my cousins and relatives are like sooo pretty..
confirm zak will go 0.0 when he sees them at my sister's wedding next yr..
~
im stress.. PROJECTS JUST SUCK A LOT..
and i still have 5 reports to do:(
~

i got the feeling that im gonna be the last one..
it's either that or ....

fuck technologies

2009-12-22T20:30:00.002+08:00

my dearest lappy crashed a few hours ago..
and im going to send it for for repair by this week..
there goes my savings :(

and i hate the fact im using my sis lappy for the time being :(
it's better then nothing but i cant hog onto it for long since it's
being shared with 3 other siblings -.-"

ohh damn it..
GET WELL SOON PLS LAPPY..
I MISS YOU!!

cant do reports..cant complete projects..
gahhh.. im so stress :(

a point in life..

2009-12-13T14:55:00.005+08:00

sometimes...
there comes a point in life when you just feel lousy :(

~

and i talked to mum about class on sun and she approves it :)
InsyAllah i'll start soon coz i feel so lost right now..
i need a sense of direction and i guess im old enough to know what's good for me..

~seriously what's the point of chasing after the world when at the end of the day,
it's between you and God.

haishhhhh

2009-12-05T21:15:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU DANIAL!!
and hurray FOR BEING LEGAL:)
now the freaks can finally watch m18 movies together.. HAHA..

Thank you for being such a clown in my life..
hee you rock sey..
we shall laugh together more often ..
All the best for your A'levels result..
Insyallah God laid a future for you with good health and happiness:)
May He bless you too..

So sorry no pics .. i'll post one soon aite:)

and on a lighter note, 5th is another day to remember:)

IM SO TIRED BTW:(

CAN I JUST RUN

2009-12-04T02:26:00.005+08:00

TIME CHECK: 2.26AM

and IM STILL WIDE AWAKE DOING PRESENTATION SLIDES on ALZHEIMER..
researching on AD is FUN but im so tired :(

i need sleep.. i need energy.. i need space for myself.. I NEED TIME!!

and i have yet to draw my BPT graph..nor haf i start on my intensive revision..
STRESS!!

school is just exhausting :(
been sleeping late and waking up early since the last few weeks:(

PROJECTS, REPORTS, MUGGING, CCA'S, TONS OF EVENTS...
im dead beat.. :(

BUSY BUSY BUSY LIFE..

2009-11-15T12:06:00.003+08:00

OOHH HELLO LOVELY PEEPS :)

well, LIFE HAS BEEN PRETTY FRANTIC FOR ME..
and im almost COPING well with the STRESS level..
the late update is coz i have been blogging secretly elsewhere :)
nyahahaha..

13 NOV - Further Studies Workshop 6pm-9pm
14 NOV- Standard Chartered Briefing 10.45-12.30.. Image workshop 1-3 [i skipped that]
16 NOV- Child's Play meeting 6pm-8.30pm
18 NOV- Booth duties after school hours
19 NOV-Booth duties duing school hours
20 NOV-Booth duties during school hrs and Layar Andayu production 7.20pm-10pm
21 NOV-ClimbRun 7.30am- 2pm..
23 NOV-Child's Play last meeting session. 6pm-9pm
25 NOV-CHILD'S PLAY EVENT 9am- 5pm
27 NOV-Hari Raya Haji :)
28 NOV-Image workshop 9am-1 pm
29 NOV-Tournament over at Balestier
5 DEC-Kick It 09 7.30am- 6pm
6 DEC-STANDARD CHARTERED MARATHON 1am-2pm

then COMMON TEST gona start..

and SUE.RYANA SAYANG :)
on the 13th NOV 09, i wana wish you.....

Happy Legal 18th Birthday!!!
May Allah bless you with good health, happiness and strength..
I LOVE YOU BABE..
All the best for your upcoming production..
Im really sorry i cant be ther to support you physically..
But i know it will be THE BEST STORYLINE EVER coming from you :)
when the sky is high, you can count on me and Insyallah i'll be ther for you..

Stay sweet, cheerful and gorgeous...

just now my day

2009-11-04T23:09:00.002+08:00

EXHAUSTED :(
after what has happen todae, im just worn out..
thank you so much girls for being there..

AINT HIGH IN SPIRITS TODAY :(

i hate the fact that im BLIND without my spects or contacts..
so pardon me for not acknowledging you peeps out there..

things just aint right

2009-11-03T22:26:00.002+08:00

~Dangerous and Sweet

All these words that we speak casually.
Well maybe im just weak, but it hurts me.
Everything you said
Well it cuts, like a knife
it hurts me deep inside and

I know that you are just like me, oversensitive.
We're and ordinary breed
Taking everything for much more than it means.
Well it's dangerous, and it's sweet.
Cut us and we bleed.

I should put on my armor the next time I see you
So I won't be harmed. I know I can shoot my own arrows.
Im sorry I hurt you.
I know that like me you can be oversensitive.

weak.sensitive.dependent.low self-esteem.
im lost so be nice and find me instead:(

~she was once a strong independent girl..

porridge nvr taste this good

2009-10-23T22:29:00.003+08:00

2 days back i had sore throat.. then followed by a terrible cold..
brought 1 roll of tissue to sch and by the time it hit 12pm, i had no more tissue left with me..
SKIP SCH todae due to muscle ache..whole body i tell you..
actuali i planned to come sch later in the evening but someone insisted that i stayed at home..
thank God i heeded his advice, coz i was too weak to even walk..

and and sufy came over to pass me porridge in the afternoon :)
why are you so sweet to me..thanks eh sweets..heee

i just vomitted about 2 hrs ago.. had migraine just now..
sweat it all out and tadah.. im blogging rite now -.-"

okaay im going back to sleep.. nitez ppl and take loads of vitamins..
later sick, don come find me.. :)

life just sucks

2009-10-16T01:19:00.002+08:00

if onli life is like a computer...

you can always STORE your memories in a folder..

or you can always DELETE and place it in the RECYCLING BIN..

if you think you wana RESTART or REBOOT, it's just a click away..

yeah precisely.. that's what im trying to say...

i just miss them so much

2009-10-13T18:55:00.002+08:00

i miss siti aminah a lot!!!

i miss my camfugs.. esp khaizurah and chloe coz i don even meet you guys during the holidays...

i miss s.freakz.. the awesome 4 people..

i miss my sec sch peeps... my e7 classmates, my band peeps, the malay classes..

i miss my pri sch pals.. syaz,mel, kenneth,carlo,yus, fid, nuraini ...

I REALI REALI MISS YOU GUYS A LOT..
I SWEAR IM GONA GIVE YOU GUYS A BIGGGGGGGG HUG IF I HAPPEN TO SEE YOU!!

clear the air i gues

2009-10-10T23:12:00.002+08:00

i heart aroma therapy..
it somehow relax my mind from the hustle and bustle life..
and it makes my room smell uber sweet..

take it all out...

i wish you could see that i love you

2009-10-09T02:06:00.003+08:00

every time i hear MAD by Neyo, it reminds me of you..
so todae, im gona dedicate this to you..

~ awesome eh.. love it especially the last part!!! awwww sweet.. :)

ooh and i duno why but i created this nonsentical poem..
i noe it's crap so bear with me pls..

SICK by diana marz :)

you make my stomach churn,
at the mention of that name..
on the bed i toss and turn until i go insane..

if onli i could puke it out, and forget what you said..
those words haunts me now and then,
and it reali hurts my head..

| sometimes it hurts to hear your first love talking about their first love|

lazy

2009-10-07T23:15:00.005+08:00

im so lazy to edit pics uh....

MONDAY 5TH OCT
jalan raya with sec clique :)

TUESDAY 6TH OCT
chinese garden

WEDNESDAY 7TH OCT
henderson waves with the girls

~ we took this hell staircase.. -.-"

~and we reach the top :)

LOVE YOU PEEPS :)

henderson wave

2009-10-07T18:57:00.002+08:00

I LOVE THE FACT
THAT IM ALWAYS HOME
BEFORE SEVEN FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS:)
(except raya outing)

so anyway, im gona bathe now then do my prayers..mayb eat if im feeling hungry.
most prolly i will update all pics from the past outing later uh..
nyahahahaa :)
so be patience coz MARDIANA comes to those who wait -.-"
kay crap.. ZZZzzzz

sufyan befdae wish and some msg to coward guy

2009-10-04T21:13:00.005+08:00

05.10.09

Happy Legal 18th Birthday to you sweets...
yes i know i'm a few hours early..

~
and yes to you my friend, seriously if you reali like her a lot..
TELL HER, DO NOT FEAR REJECTION !!!
because you are NOT the ONLY guy after her so if you don't tell her,
you might live with regrets..
the rest is up to you, whatever your decisions may be..
may God be on your side always, InsyaAllah ..

~
sometimes i wonder, do i reali scare people away..
am i that unapproachable :(
why do you guys trust others more than me to the
point that im always the last to know :(

mb hari raya :)

2009-10-01T18:49:00.003+08:00

mb raya was a success even though it's not the full strength :)
thanks to everyone who made the outing happen..
especially to fir and amalina for planning this thing..heee
InsyaAllah next year ade lagi...

~ ahh this one can cancel contract eh.. lol

i still have two more raya outings..
with the sec sch peeps and stagearts peeps..
tiring nye....

MY RIGHT EYE IS SWOLLEN.. STUPID CONTACTS..
THAT MEANS GLASSES FOR TWO EFFING WEEKS..
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

kite pon sayang awak..

2009-09-27T12:16:00.004+08:00

kiter sayang awak..

erm.. ya.. ohh.. umm..

real madrid..real madrid.. real madrid..

kental selenge.

cleaning the house todae :)

a fun hari raya

2009-09-26T22:04:00.003+08:00

i woke up early todae and discovered my eyes all puffy and swollen..
don ask me why ..

anyway, went off to GEYLANG wif mum this morning..
got myself a baju kurong.. but sadly, it isn silver :(
then mum decided to get me some shoes since i broke my heels on the second day of raye..
so off to bukit panjang plaza searching for nice heels..
instead i got this DRESS at a very good price.. :)

seriously, todae is the onli day im enjoying my hari raya for real..
set off to sis's soon-in-laws-to-be house..eat and play wif babies..
then walked over to bik icah's open house.. eat, talk and look ard..
drive over to kak yana's beautiful house.. eat, talk and walk ard..
and lastly, visit another grandaunt's OPENHOUSE..
talk, camwhored, play wif babies and internet..

~ lil baby naim is so cute when he smiles :)

~ love her room, very cosy :)
one young crappy aunt (mum's cousin)

I CANT WAIT FOR MONDAY !!!

i had a talk with bestie and he said something..
maybe i was ready afterall just that..
wait what if i wasn ready..
0.o

I NEED A GETAWAY!!!

2009-09-24T21:40:00.006+08:00

RESULTS WERE OUT YESTERDAY...

Firstly, i know some of us are feeling shitty about our results..
and nothing i say can make us feel better..
what's done is done
but what we can do is to learn and not repeat the same mistakes..
one things for sure, i believe we all had work hard for it and
God's will, we will do better the next time..
and talking about next time, it all depends on us and how bad we reali want it :)

btw im NOT telling my mum about my results because it isn up to her expectations..
sometimes i wish she would understand that i did my best but the best isn the best for her..
which is true.. :(
because she knows that my best is not enuf to get to where i want to be..

TIME TO WAKE UP DEE..

OHHH you're always saying it BUT ARE YOU DOING ANYTHING ABOUT IT??
-.-"

Hari Raya 09

2009-09-22T19:57:00.004+08:00

Seems like most people i know isn't in the mood for raya..
sadly, im one of them too :(
nevertheless, we shud stil try to have fun rite ..

First Day:

~cute kan the kids.. hee i loike sey..
they never fail to make me smile :)

Second Day:

~went over to granduncle's house..
then headed back home coz visitors coming..
sis's in-laws to be, all of my dad's siblings and his frens.
i was either in the kitchen preparing food or serving drinks..
tiring sey..

so most of the time, i spent my raya with babies and kids..
so cute lah they all..
i swear i wana bring them home..

and i want 7 babies kay, not 7 minus 5 ..
haha..okay random..
yes i know u know..

diana marz is lovebitten..
black PE shorts and tee-shirt :)
for the first time, we actuali wear the same thing..
coincidental or fate..
and ty for accompanying me thru the fone..
sorry for the ' gimme a minute'
coz i had to wash my face, brush my teeth, change and stuff..
i did that cos i don wan you to sleep,
i stil wana talk to you lah..
and yes, i will meet your mum someday..
InsyaAllah..

EID MUBARAK

2009-09-20T01:07:00.004+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL MUSLIMS...
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN !!

I’d like to wish all my darling family and friends
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, mohon maaf zahir dan batin.
I would like to apologize
for any wrong doings, misunderstandings or
harsh comments I might have made to everyone.
It's human nature prone to making mistakes
so let's forgive each other .
Have a Blessed Eid Mubarak filled with PEACE and Happiness :)
InsyaAllah..

i miss you bunch of twerps ..

2009-09-17T14:51:00.004+08:00

People COME and GO...
hopefully my friends COME but NEVER GO.

.
~LOVE THIS PIC :D

~aku sayang dorang :D

~gahhh i miss them lah :D

~ni takleh angkat sey, juon, kakashi, the ring all come out -.-"

i just want a great DIPLOMA after poly..
that's the reason i came here for..
May ALLAH Almightly guide me to where i wanna be..

break fast with S.FREAKZ

2009-09-15T23:54:00.000+08:00

Thank you Hazwani Hamdan :)

Matrimonio de amor
A como amor
~R. clayderman

meet my darling s.freakz todae :) danny sue haz..
break fast over at marina then camwhored like nobody business :)
TYPICAL US LAH..
oohh and i saw familiar faces along the way..
solehan:) , welly, zawiyyah and dianaRad...

shall update the pics soon.. damn it, tmr have ATEAM meeting again..
can i pls not go..... :(

i wonder if i can survive 2 weeks without you...

i think i love you...

2009-09-14T23:58:00.005+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i miss a lot of people sia.. i just realise..
from my pri sch peeps, to sec frens, to band ppl, to S.FREAKS,
to Poly mates to CAMFUGS to you to darling cousins etc..

i think i've seen this somewhere...
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners. [nowander you always share stuff with me:) ]
Very Good in the you know where ...
Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. [reminds me of you,lol ]
Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative.
Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. [another reason why we are still together ]
Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.

I had A.Team meeting over at sch.. STRESS :(
anyway, meet dearest fatin awhile and accompanied her get food at woodlands..
then off to meet sufy,we buke at pastamania..
thanks for ytd sweets,i enjoyed every seconds with you..
i like it a lot when we share stuff and tease each other lovingly :) nyahaha..
kay stop eet eh dee, mushy2 ni sume tak perlu-.-"

CANT WAIT FRO TMR :)
BUKE WITH S.FREAKS.. I MISS YOU GUYS A LOT!!!

the best day of my life..

2009-09-13T23:54:00.001+08:00

Underneath the moon, Underneath the stars
Here's a little heart for you.
Up above the world, Up above it all
Here's a hand to hold on to

But if I should break, If I should fall away
What am I to do?
I need someone to take, A little of the weight
Or I'll fall through

You're just the one That I've been waiting for
I'll give you All that I have To give and more
But don't let me fall..

i love lenka's song :)

and ya noe.. production was great on the 12th sept :)
though there was some technical error, the show went on smoothly..
will miss the backstage laughters and TMT's inside joke..

on a brighter note...
i cant wait for mon and tues.. :)
you know, they know, i know...

gues the riddle :D

2009-09-11T12:43:00.000+08:00

PRODUCTION IS TOMORROW :)

wheeee... i cant wait !!!

from S to OF to F to GF to MTF to FWB to __.

"Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's
called falling in love, because you don't force
yourself to fall, you just fall "

you need to stop and smell the roses

2009-09-07T00:59:00.001+08:00

love the date.. 07 09 2009..
prolly coz my fav 7 and 9 are there..

thank you so much haz.. again ur a life saviour wen it comes to the internet..
seriously im such an IT noob, just kill me somebody -.-"

on a LIGHTER NOTE..

EXAMS ENDED!!!! like 5 days ago i mean..
before you start celebrating, RESULTS are not out yet so don bother..
in my case, tats a heck lah until my mum starts nagging wen she see how 'well' my results are..
then im doomed.. in other words.. mampossssss ...

two weeks of exams had been a HELL ride..
i duno how many times i actuali cried coz of stress..
so many things to memorise yet so little time..
it's like reading the whole note 5 times yet nth gets in ur head..
i duno how to cope in next sem :'(

amidst feeling all shitty and pressurized, someone made my 2 weeks better:)

thanks for the roses.. i love it so much :)

and the chocolates, which we coincidently bought for each other :)

the never ending sweet poems..

When you are sad, I will dry your tears
When you are scared, I will comfort your fears
When you need love, my heart I will share
When you are sick, for you I will care

you will feel my love when we are apart
Knowing that nothing will change my heart
whenyou are worried, I will give you hope
when you are confused, I will help you cope

When you are lost, and can’t see the light
My love will be a beacon, shining ever so bright
This is my vow, one that I pledge till the end
For you above all are my love and best friend

These words I have written, speak of my love for you
From my lips these words spoken, shall always ring true
God has blessed me, and with your hand in mine
Both of our hearts, will forever intertwine

Into all lives, falls pain and sorrows,
I promise together, we will meet all tomorrows
Happy in life, honor and love
blessed in unity by God above

and lastly, this cute lil drawing..
thank you dearest..

it's gona be a busy week...
drama props, theater rehearsals and A.team meetings.
long effing hours in sch during the holidays..
amazing but true-.-"

i bought those cute crochet headbands..
cant wait for shopping..
spare me $200 can ?

Happy Holidays to all and may God bless you!!

STUPID BLOGGER

2009-09-06T17:52:00.001+08:00

WHAT THE HELL....

ARGHHH!!!!
I WANA UPDATE MY BLOG BUT BLOGGER IS BEING A PAIN IN THE ARSE..

no compose button.. no text and colour button -.-"
cant even upload pics..

what a week sial

2009-08-03T16:32:00.002+08:00

im getting well.. just minor sore throat and donkey coughs-.-"
seems like people are prone to getting sick nowadays:(

anyway.. so many things to update..
firstly, EXAMS is in 22 DAYS time.. STRESS bodoh..
my results for COMMON TEST is pretty shitty btw..

you din realise she was there when you needed her..
you don noe how much you meant to her..
you don even noe how badly she wanted to talk to you, joke with you and smile with you..

she waited and waited even though she noes you're leaving her behind..
she wished for a miracle to happen but all you did was say good bye..
that was it, she got the cue..she starts afresh without you..
life got better wen you werent with her..
like duh -.-"

ooh and you're such a sweetheart:)
I love the way you look at me,
Your eyes so bright and sexy.
I love the way you kiss me,
Your lips so soft and smooth.

I love the way you make me so happy,
And the ways you show you care.
I love the way you say, "I Love You,"
And the way you're always there
And remember always that you'r not alone, im always here with you

I love the way you touch me,
Always sending chills down my spine.
I love that you are with me,
And glad that you are mine baby.

COMMON TEST 09 OVER-.-

2009-07-11T23:56:00.001+08:00

ARSE HAIR WAS SAYING...and
BYE SING..
nyahaha..injoke:)

To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did.
When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you,
but merely opening your hands to receive something better..

~i shall keep this in mind all the time:)

it sucks making frens..especially when you create a bond with them,
you appreciate their company and talking to them is the greatest feeling ever..
Then..someone takes them away from you..
What's left is nothing but just memories you had with that person..

ooh ya..
COMMON TEST IS OVER!!!!

sometimes, i feel like running away from reality..
if i had the money now, i wana withdraw from poly..

"SEPERTI KACANG LUPAKAN KULIT"
OMG tat is like so effing random can..

in DRAMA just now, we had to expres ourselves
in a sad sad sad situation but i lmao instead..
funny thing rite, i just cried my arse off 3 seconds ago..
-.-"

muffins from you

2009-06-28T22:12:00.003+08:00

i received a box of chocolate muffins from a dear dear fren:)
it was simply delicious to the point
that i smiled after each bite i took..
thank you so much for the effort in baking them..

quick summary:

attending intensive Drama rehearsals..
meeting cute lil baby danish..
Out with darling S.freaks..
Study with camfugs..
visit pertapis home..
DRAMA performance at JP..
Work at Singapore Discovery Centre..

i shall update soon with pics..
for now, im off to mug my freaking arse off..
i vowed not to go online for entertainment purposes..
and lastly, e-learning is dick in the box..

~wait for me please....

STRESS

2009-06-21T19:57:00.002+08:00

SEE THIS..

cute right..like some pri sch kid drawing..

anyway..im STRESS..
HOLIDAYS hate me..
im gona screw EXAMS big time..
and my hair smells like fcuking AMMONIA..

~how i wish i was that lucky..
it's okay dee, MOVE ON..

Contentment is not the fulfilment of what you wanted,
it is the realization of how much you already have.
- Anonymous.

and i was RIGHT..
it's NOT how LONG you know someone..
it's how WELL you know them within that period of time..

did i make a freaking mistake getting into MOLECULAR BIOTECH ?
I WANA TAKE PSYCHOLOGY..

DRAMA..

2009-06-16T23:45:00.004+08:00

DRAMA todae was AWESOME:)
yeap..i love my group sey..
the bonding is there thanks to us being RETARDED..

~cute rite we all..

~that's us almost retarded.. before this we were way retarded..

and and dearest Syeerah send me home todae:)
we got lost halfway while driving at the expressway..
ahahaa..my bad..anyway...
THANK YOU sweet for ensuring that im home safe..

On the other hand..
I MISS ATEAM CAMP LIKE SERIOUSLY..

~US GIRLS with SANTI:)

~I HEART PATRICK AND HE NOES TAT:)

~PASSION rocks my SMELLY socks..

my 2 g.bestie called todae in the wee hours..
in2 followed by an2..
so we kinda conference and they're so cute..

an2: why you cal her so late?
in2: my prob uh,it's in the morning wat?
an2: ooh yeah morning..stil?
in2: why cannot uh?
an2: cannot uh..im her boy wat..

happily talkin to them, i kinda dozed off..
yet AGAIN..sorry guys:(

I MISS S.FREAKS..
I MISS MINAH..
I MISS CAMFUGS..
I MISS YOU PEEPS TOO..

my past days..

2009-06-15T11:20:00.003+08:00

FIRSTLY IM HAPPY ADMIST FEELING STRESS AND TIRED..
i just got back from ATEAM camp and it was SUPERB:)
pictures later kay..

and my DEAREST CAMFUGS had a BEFDAE SURPRISE for me ON MY BEFDAE..
it doesn end there..they actuali made this BIG GIGANTIC STYROFOAM card and
i got a lovely VINTAGE bag from them:)hee thanks guys..LOVE YOU PEEPS..
and again, pics later..

ooh and todae i had DRAMA..10am-9.30pm..
super tiring sia..my acting skills was damn retarded and irritating..
in a GOOD way so thumbs up to me and the team as well..
u can catch us as jurong point on the 2*th june:)

OOH LOOK HERE...

~ms Ambassador ..ehem
you'll see me neat when im wearing this:)

HOLIDAYS SUCK..COZ IT'S NOT EVEN HOLIDAYS FOR ME!!

ABC Report
MBT Report
HBD Report

EXAMS AFTER 2 WEEKS BREAK

Drama script to be edited
Ateam event plan

Drama rehearsals
Drama performance on 2*th June
Community service at Pertapis on the 25th June
Weekend work at Science centre

Besides all these, i wana meet my homies..
and i have other plans as well..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME AND HAZ!!

2009-06-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

I LOVE THE DATE

090609

the day i turned LEGAL 18:)
as well as my darling twin..
NORHAZWANI HAMDAN

anyway..
HAPPY OHH-SO-LEGAL 18th BIRTHDAY TO US!!
thanks for being a best fren and a twin sister..
virtual hug from me to you dearest..
things may be a lil different now but
i want you to know that i'll always be ther for you..
thank you again for hearing me out and
help me wen im in deep shit..
i truly miss those memories of our wacky times siol
and life has been a great ride with you ard..
I LOVE YOU TWIN SIS:)

thank you nuruddin for the befdae animation:) uber cool can!!
thank you too sufyan for the befdae card and paper hearts:)

Happy Birthday Mum

2009-06-08T00:00:00.002+08:00

Amidst the busy hectic life,
someone close to me turns a year older..

Happy Birthday Mama Sayang!!
I LOVE YOU from the bottom of my heart.
Thank you for your guidance and your encouragement.
Your endurance to bring up your 5 kids with both
delicate hands is greatly admired.
May Allah bless you and reward you..
it may not be todae, tomorrow but just maybe hereafter.
Insya Allah..

~i have something to tell you..
I
AM
PROCRASTINATING-.-"

happy birthday chloe

2009-06-04T23:07:00.005+08:00

PSST...
LOOK HERE!!

HAPPY SEXY LEGAL 18th BIRTHDAY CHLOE WEE LU YI!!!
stay cheerful, sexy, wacky and smart:)
All the best and you simply rock my life..
thanks for being a dear fren..
Sorry for being a bitch sometimes
but all you need to know is
I LOVE YOU BABE!!

oh and Happy Birthday to Jabez as well!!
the whole clique gave him a card..
:)

and to Yusneeta..
sory for the belated post..

on the 29th May, i know you turned 18!!
so HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST:)
stay smart and gorgeous!!
I LOVE YOU:)

~i saw haz again todae:) and episode 2 coming rite up..

GRADUATION FOR 09 BATCH

2009-05-27T21:44:00.003+08:00

POTATO..TOMORROW..HERE I COME..

and im sleeping at 10.10pm todae..
white shirt check..black skirt check..
socks check..court shoes check..
black hair spray check..

need to wake up at 4am tmr-.-

i bump into you

2009-05-25T20:42:00.005+08:00

I BUMPED INTO HAZWANI HAMDAN TODAY!!!
I MISS YOU A LOT..3 weeks more to go before meet up..
Saba itu separuh malaysia like wat fir wud say...

ooh ya..did reports and marketting project todae:)
wif dearest buva,shir and fatin..
i bought the white top for graduation as well as the vintage top..
ahaha.sory eh buva, cant help it uh..

STAGEARTS NIGHT 09 [23rd May]

once a stagearter, always a stagearter :)

~warning, hideous content below..
view at your OWN risk..

~sexy syeerah and cannot make it pretty azi-zinta :) LOL

~i love both plays..and nicholas boob super funny.

~those sexy girls im always with:)

~Drunken TMT peeps..nyahaha..

Most peeps dress to kill on that bollynight...
including AZIZI..ahaha..
overall PARTY : QUITE FUN
best part: DOING JUMP SHOTS IN SARI -.-"

THANKS JULIE FOR LENDING THE SARI,I OWE YOU ONE:)
THANKS BUVA FOR TYING THE SARI and MORE, I LOVE YOU=]

I SHAL GIVE A PROPER UPDATE TMR:)
WAIT..I MEAN AFTER I FINISH REPORT-ING..

i loike this song...

2009-05-24T00:56:00.003+08:00

i shall update wen im free..
listen to this..

and this is so cute..

~and ijan,yes uh you noe my kind of music..
im already inlove wif her btw..

i should just shut up

2009-05-20T22:28:00.004+08:00

life has been a tipsy turvy drunken roller skating ride..
and....
what you don't know, doesn't hurt you..
and..
what you see and you don't wish to see, just pretend you didn't see..

ooh well maybe i shud just shut up next time..
on second thought.. sharing isn caring at all..
it's a risk..so let's just keep some things to ourselves..

reading your blog makes sense this time round..
the answer was so clear but i just refused to believe it at first..
now that i know the truth which you think i don't, im glad u let it go..

and happy 18th birthday to amelia!!!
sory for the belated befdae post..
all the best in whatever you do and i love you loads..
thank you for sharing, smiling and advising:)
you simply rock my life..

~i just feel like apologising..and get well soon ijan:)

Alhamdullilah

2009-05-18T22:58:00.002+08:00

Thank God my mum and adik getting better:)
Alhamdulillah..
and i din waste my effort nursing them for the past few days..
which explains why im uber dead fatigue todae to
the extent i had to reject a few calls from my peeps.
except for the last one..nyahaha..if not confirm i stil sleeping-.-

amist being tired and sad, something good did happen..
~for me to know and you'll never find out

i miss the 3 of you can..two calls down, just wher did the other one go:(
oooh yeah..back to assignments..
and you noe wat..I JUST LOVEEEEEE DRAMA..

at wits end

2009-05-16T16:51:00.002+08:00

hafiz is stil sick and growing skinnier day by day:(
hazriq is sick as well, puking non-stop..
now my mum is sick.. :'(

the house feels so dead..so empty and quiet..
dad is away and big bro in NS..
im uber tired..so is my sis..
....
i shal put my feelings aside for now
coz my family need me..

THEY KNOW-.-

2009-05-13T00:01:00.002+08:00

i want quality time with my sec sch peeps..
i miss you guys so much!! i wana let it all out..
and TY babe for that post..buat aku nangis jer :(

p/s: when the time has come,i shall *insert phrase*..

4 ccas..

2009-05-11T21:53:00.002+08:00

packed with CCAs every week..not just ONE but FOUR-.-
anyway...
I MISS A LOT OF PEOPLE..
I WANA MEET YOU GUYS, CATCH UP ON HOW THINGS ARE..
RANT ON STUFF, LAFF LIKE ARSES, DO SILLY THINGS AND TALK ALL DAY LONG..

yanafanadannyhaz, aminah and gang, banDipeeps, gilagundus, etc etc..
~i cant be bothered coz u're draining my energy anyways..

happy mother's day

2009-05-10T23:52:00.002+08:00

TO ALL MOTHERS OUT THERE...

and i love you mama dearest..

~can u imagine Hafiz actuali planned this?

Oh Allah help me..

2009-05-08T21:42:00.003+08:00

a series of events..random? maybe..

i had a DREAM..NIGHTMARE actualli..
and i know it's telling me something..
i need to know what it is..but it's scaring the SHIT out of me..

the tryouts for CCAs drained my entire energy for the week..
stagearts TMT to a.team interview to stagearts DRAMA to CSC orientation..
the moment i step home..I JUST WANA LIE DOWN AND SLEEP..

3 weeks of survival in year 2..and im like literally dying..
REPORTS..REPORTS..REPORTS..
and mundane lectures..not forgetting PRACS..

you tripped then fall..trying to get up slowly..
all you noe is that the wounds hurt and you need to
bandage it fast..real fast..

after what you did..it's weird being ard you..
i feel fake and i just cant help it..
but i know i cant trust you anymore...

i miss you motivator fren..i miss you too listening ear..
i wished i had met more people like you guys:)
but i noe you once entered my life and made a big difference to it..

my sis told me to let the balloon go after she read those words
on my mobile phone..
fact is..she doesn even noe what the hell im talking about-.-

i don need SNOBS like you who practically treat people like underwear..
you were so much nicer when you're INVISIBLE..

one day..we shall have coffee talks..
exchange views and intelligent convos:)

I WANT KOREAN FOOD!!! CRAVINGS..

tmr i shall blog a proper post.
once after i have completed all my assignments that is..

2009 is OKAY

2009-05-07T23:58:00.002+08:00

ytd had Drama orientation and tmr
i be goin for community service orientation..
wheee..best or wat..

i love thursday for the fact that we start at 11:)
anyway..train-ed to dhoby ghaut wif mave..
we crap all the way.. rite minion?..LOL
off he went to lil india and off i went to vivo to meet ijan..
and yes ijan,go cut ur hair can!! so freakin long for wat-.-
ahaha..

i wonder how my fren is doing..
sheesh..i miss those times..
seriously if onli u were stil in singapore:(

and dearest benny sms-ed me a few days back!!
like so random can:)

what's life without DRAMA:)

sick but fun week:)

2009-05-03T00:09:00.000+08:00

oooh look..it's the third..
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY FITRIAH!!!

30th April 09

gave FIT a mini surprise advanced befdae celebration..

after that played badminton wif mb peeps..
and i din even bothe to change so i wore tat^^^.
the best part was playing with mave,zan and buva..
they are SUPER HILARIOUS I TELL YA..

then off to DRAMA AUDITION..
i actuali planned to SKIP due to cold infection but luckily i didn't..
super fun sey the ppl ther..the BANANA girl reali a pain in the arse..
buva shud noe lah..

SCRIPT: some emo girl with a disease..
SPOT ON SCENARIO:happily bathing wen some idiot teleport me to orchard road..
SONG:moondance by michael buble..
~i was damn nervous i acted stupid..LOL

1st May 09

send carlo off at the airport with my pri sch peeps..
seriously im so gona miss those lil squabbles with him:(
and i met my sec sch peeps ther as well..

another befdae surprise to KENNETH!!!
woohoo..HAPPY BEFDAE DUDE!!! Legal ready eh..
chin bring down very kacak,handsome..lol

2nd May 09

TMT orientation:)
meet new frens..this year one very cute sey..
his name oso style,hafriz..and the two piercings under his lips make him even cuter..
our new found adik..ahaha..

~if you're not sincere in inviting me,then fine i won't go..
correction, I DON'T EVEN WANT TO GO!!

let the balloon go dee..

2009-04-29T18:35:00.003+08:00

DAN SEBENARNYA...by Yuna:)

Oh bulan, enggan melayan diriku lagi
pabila,
air mata membasahi pipi
dan lagu2 di radio seolah2 memerli aku
pabila,
kau bersama yg lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

ku enggan
berpura pura ku bahagia
ku enggan
melihat kau bersama si dia
oh ku akui cemburu
mula menular dalam diri
pabila
kau bersama yang lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

pabila kau merenung matanya
ku rebah,
jatuh ke bumi..........
di saat kau benar-benar mahu pergi
seperti ku bernafas dalam air
adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu kau juga merindui aku
oh
dan sebenarnya...
aku rindu......
dan sebenarnya....
dan sebenarnya....
aku tak mampu........

i cant wait for drama audition tmr..and make-up meet-up? LOL
btw,im swear i din see ya in the elevator..
onli after you went off tat is..
so wanted to acknowledge your presence!!sory:(

~Disebalik senyuman diwajah,
tersemat segaris luka yang sekian lama memakan diri sendiri.

PRAC SUCKS

2009-04-27T20:18:00.004+08:00

I HATE PRACTICALS...SCREW YOU!!!!
and I LOVE those two clowns...ahaha..

laughter is the best remedy when you feel all shitty and downcast..
that's why i prefer lmao everyday no matter how suck i feel..
they're the reason for the end of a once beautiful friendship..

slowly she let go of the balloon..wishing it will never come back..
but it takes a lot of courage to set it free..
because the person who ties the balloon onto her hand means so much..
~d.m the great

btw i better start with my pract-.- #$%^*&$#
oh ya tat bloody women at the student affair office is super the unfriendly lah..
can talk nicely rite..why must you give tat tone of voice..
we're not KIDS you noe-.-

yuna dan sebenarnya

2009-04-26T20:40:00.003+08:00

im inlove with this song and the singer..
so my type of song.. :))))
she reminds me of norah jones but malay version..

im so slow todae...i need another 8 * 10^2 m..
i have 2 mths left..if not die sey..sheeshh..

anyway..i need to sleep by 10.30 everyday..unless i haven completed any assignments yet..
and the max hours of using the lappy is just 4..
i find internet crap and waste of time therefore onli when im done with my work
then i'll find entertainment through there..
wait..im contradicting-.- here i am bloggin when i havn even finish my assignments..

on a lighter note..i was bloghopping just now out of random and tadahhh..
everyone is linked lah..i noe u, u noe her.she noes her.and she noes another her who is in STAGEARTS and the girl took a picture with another HIM..the stg girl linked to her..and she noes another fren who noes me..
complicated eh..

random dee

2009-04-25T23:56:00.004+08:00

what a weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek..
seriously i tink cleaning the house is so much fun then goin for lecture..

no more last min work like in year1..this year is super hectic..
weekdays filled wif sch and NEW cca..my SUNDAYs are jampacked as well..
mayb soon enuf SATURDAY will be ndp:))))

Did you know that i still keep a diary?
Did you know that i feel like making a new private blog?
Did you know that i am a sentimental person?
Did you know that i keep a lot of things like candles,notebook and even sweetwrapers coz they were given by people and they hold a lot of precious memories?
Did you know that there are a lot of things you don't know about me and i don't want you to know because if you know then i don't know what else to say?

and Haz..lol can give me the link to a post u made on ur coursemate..
coz you din write the name in that recent post did you?
unless it's something that rhymes with dust..or mayb it's...

IM A MAD BITCH TODAY..
the stupid assignment on ABC prac made me screamed out loud
coz i cant understand it and the thing wont fit in my head!!!!!!

one last thing..i love my frens and i don like getting mad at them..
i like project work but i hate staying up late finishing the whole project alone
especially wen i did my part already but i had to do urs coz you guys din do it..
and im sick of people not putting in effort and asking how the project is like when FACT IS
you didn't even have the initiative to cooperate in the first place..
i gave a nicer approach but you guys take it for granted..
i even give a small share of the project to you guys..but did you do it?

if anything like this happens again in the future, trust me i'll exclude your name in the project to come..
this may sound mean but who was meaner? don't worry this isn't a threat..
im just stating this on behalf of other people out there who has this issue
but are just afraid to speak up..coz i noe im not the onli one..

anyway the past is past okay:) sory for this 'ooh so furious' post..you are forgiven...
just promise not to do it again..IF NOT.. ahaha..i love you guys..

yeah past is past coz i see brown stripes...is tat candy?

PICK ME A BLOODY CCA

2009-04-22T21:00:00.003+08:00

ambassador club.. community service..
stage arts..photography club..
dikir barat..make-up artiste..astronomy club..
hockey..percussion ensemble?

damn..percussion ensemble is part of band-.-
it isn't a cca by itself..SHIT LAH..
don't NYP have a storm group or something..?
weak uh..and i din noe hanafi was in band-.-

and i DON NOE WAT CCA TO JOIN.. [feel like joining all sey]
but most likely..ambassador club and i just signed up for DRAMA..
DEE and DRAMA..?? like seriously-.- ahaha..
it's gona be a hell of fun but audition is..s.c.a.r.y. s.h.i.t

whatever it is..I NEED TO GET A CCA THIS YEAR..

just like any other day

2009-04-21T21:38:00.002+08:00

i regret cutting my hair..reali..
and im so gona rebond my hair again in june..
i wana do something before stepping into the legal zone..
mayb rebel a bit [yeah rite], pierce my tongue or wat..
ooh yeah pierce the eyes so cannot open..tskk
-.-" kay crap..

after 4896147 weeks..atlast i see AZRI TODAE:)
he was practically knocking on the glass door of auditorium to get my attention..
lucky chloe notice..and he was elated to see me.."jumping for joy ah"
he ___me and his frens said im ___..

meet haz as well..hand her online shoes..ytd meet NORA..hee..
i want to see all the familiar faces in sch..!!
zak syazwanie nadiah xing you etc etc..

it's time to GROW UP.. and start being INDEPENDENT..

i had a talk wif zak bestie and as usual we were ranting on RANDOM stuf..
to sum it up.. focus on what you wana achieve and heck what ppl ard you is saying..
if you JUST want to graduate with a normal diploma,then stick to your comfort zone..
and i noe what i want,and insyallah i can make it.. i made a promise..
a promise to my mum whom i disappoint twice..

JETLAG

2009-04-20T22:09:00.006+08:00

i onli had to survive 1hr of damn boring marketing lecture todae..
and here i am..feeling ooh so tired..

im goin off to bed rite now..
and NE PROJECT can %$&@ %$# seriously..

i encounter something like this in sec sch..
and it's happening again in poly :)

NITEZ PEEPS:)))

i wish i had someone..a fren..just somebody to share my insecurities with..
someone to hear me out sincerely..it's tiring to keep things to yourself..
it's tiring to pretend.. it's tiring to put a smile on your face,
to joke about and act all happy when deep inside, you hurt..

blissful tuesday..

2009-04-14T13:54:00.005+08:00

BLISSFUL TUESDAY :)

the shoes i ordered online arrived in the morning..
and the hp company just replaced me wif a new ADAPTOR..
uber uber uber happy:)

ooh ya..HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY HANIF!!!
thanks for being one of the best senior ever...
stay crappy and happy..and cute LOL...

and HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY ZAT!!
woohoo..dah bdak poly sey..LOL.

just as i promised, an update..
a reali reali looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong one..

if long post bore you, don't read ;)
*****************************************************************

2nd April 09

bowling..band-ing..birthday bash-ing.. TRIPLE TREAT I'D SAY:)

~ gorgeous haz, hilarious nuruddin and zany me:)

next stop : visit lovelies band peeps over at sec sch..

~ my darling juniors and alumni..
catch up on those fun times..gahhh i miss them:(

last stop: sis's TWENTY-SOMETHING befdae bash..LOL..
you shud get what i mean kenneth -.- heee..

3rd april 09

meet chloe and fatin for NE project over at bugis..
khaizurah din make it..so went shopping after that..

7th april 09

PRSS BAND SYF COMPETITION..

9th april 09

shopping wif FATIN NADHIRAH ISMAIL :)

10th april 09

HAPPY CAMFUGS ANIVERSARY..
buva chloe fatin fitriah khaizurah shirlene liyun..
I LOVE YOU GUYS A LOT:)

help NORA for her dinner and dance event:)

12th april 09

gym session wif sis and her peeps..tiring
im gona aim for 4click next week..insyallah..

13th april 09

NE-project wif fatin:) im craving for KOREAN food..

the feeling of regret:
is wen something doesn go the way you want it to and you wished you hadnt start it in the first place..

that's my definition,wat's urs?

currently reading: glamour by louise bagshawe

wait til i get new adaptor..

2009-04-03T21:28:00.012+08:00

i'll make it snappy..

I.WILL.UPDATE.WHEN.I.GET.NEW.ADAPTOR.FOR.MY.LAPPY.

PROMISE!!!

and..i wont be online for a few days..until next week most probably..
so pls wait for photos to be uploaded kay if i owe you guys one that is:)
sms or cal me if you need anything:)
oh and don give me miss calls.. -.-

im not telling you anything..

~you're blessed with such frens who hurt you a lot..
but you still THANK GOD for that..
i salute you for being strong and do keep up with it..
if i had frens like those, i would have ditched them..
i believe that something good will happen to you..
you may not receive it here but be patient kay..Insyallah..

malena 25th

2009-04-02T00:47:00.004+08:00

to my most dearest beloved melodramatic sis..

HAPPY __th BIRTHDAY!!
Stay gorgeous, sweet and outgoing..
may ALLAH bless you and keep you in good health..
hopefully your future will be a smooth ride..
insyallah..
don't worry i'll keep praying for your happiness..
and rmb what family is for..hee
quit watever bad habits..ehem i noe kay:)
and stick to those good ones..LOL..
thanks for being a GREAT sis and
I LOVE YOU frm the bottom of my arse ehh i mean heart<33

I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU KAK YAN:)

and i love love boys over flowers..
i love kim bum and lee min ho..

150th post

2009-04-01T22:31:00.002+08:00

FIRSTLY...
my freaking adaptor is spoilt..and i need to GET A NEW ONE FAST!!
which means..
new adaptor = $55 -.-

SECONDLY..
my hp is goin haywire..so either i get a NEW PHONE or REPAIR IT.
either way..BOTH needs MONEY..

THIRDLY..
i just ordered a new pair of shoes..
NEW SHOES= $31 gone :)

THE POINT IS..
technology is eating up on me and....
I NEED MONEY!!!!

but...
the first time i set my eyes on you... I REALI WANT YOU..
be mine shoes..let me save another 40 decent bucks and you're mine:)

i need clothes..i need shoes..i need bags..i need belts..WHATEVER DEE-.-

SUNDAY

2009-03-30T17:54:00.006+08:00

ytd was fun:)
went kushi wif sis ytd b4 i meet them over at tamp..
hee..i love you guys:)

~DANNY has a thing for toilet bowl...

~you caught me in the shower-.-

after that meet bro and sis over at town..
eat at puncak then took 106 to marina..
we conquered the bus as we were the onli passengers on board..

~my bro like hooligan sey-.-

anis befdae..

2009-03-29T00:31:00.004+08:00

to my dearest couz Anis:)

stay sweet and happy always..
may God bless you and keep you in best of health..
love ya<33

and sory for stealing this pic:(

so the four of us..
my sis, both brothers and i
pledged the 60 earth hour thing yesterdae..
okaaay fine,i forced them into it for FUN..
we survived 1hr without tv, fan, LIGHTS, aircon..
kudos to us...heee:)
aromatherapy.candles.ghoststories.jokes.crap fun.

rain rain go away..
i have nothing else to say..

parlour.IKEA.home

~it's tiring to keep a fake smile..
it's tiring to pretend that everything's fine..
please make me strong:)

confession f a shopaholic

2009-03-27T23:18:00.005+08:00

will you switch off your home power supply for JUST an hour??

just maybe,i will:))

let's flash back a bit..

26 march 09

Confession of a shopaholic rocks!!!
and i got to catch it with fatin and shir at marina<333>
hee..and we certainly learnt a valuable lesson frm the movie..
for example wen we see something we like while window shopping,
we'll go...'do you WANT it OR do you NEED it??'

so i spent 27th march 09 at home..
ohh well,the normal routines:))

btw,i reali want this top but it cost 60 bucks-.-
i mean i ..ehem..NEED this..ehem..
if not i'll stick to plan B...

p/s:im saving money..pnwed-.-

out wif nora to vivo

2009-03-24T23:21:00.003+08:00

wheee..todae was fun..
and i realised something..
every time i go out wif NORA, i keep eating western food-.-

~i made tat rose:)

and omg..i talk a lot..nora shud noe..
thanks for hearin me out babe..hee..
and hope you like my belated gifts..LOL..

btw im not emo lah..but i teared watching this..
you reali have to feel it..for instance,put yourself in their shoes and stuf..
then completely drown yourself into the music..

1 more day to outing wif babes..

2 more episodes...whee..

3 random stuffs..

i find certain butch hot...
guys with braces are uber cute..not all, just a bunch..
my brother kissed my forehead.. gues which one??

cant wait to spent the rest of the day tmr at home:)
housework..babysitter..hee..

the hectic tiring week

2009-03-24T12:56:00.004+08:00

im gona delete all blog links of peeps tats not in use..
wen i have the time tat is-.-

ohh and...

i visited the band on the 19th and 20th..
the best part: meeting aminah ashidah and desi..
been a long time reali..had dinner wif the othe band peeps..

the 20th was better..watever it is..
had dinner wif the alumni and we talked a lot:)
gues who was ther?
NADIAH MAHIRAH JON hanif fadhil zak amad frhan..
i miss trpt :'(

a small meet up wif danny and haz on the 21st:)
i need buy some art stuf for a lil project..

and todae..
im gona meet NORA...at vivo, again..ahaha..
woots..got a lil surprise for her...lalala...

i cant wait to meet you babes for movie,bowling and shopping..
oh wed and thurs,come faster please..

and haf a safe trip to aussie ijan!!! see ya real soon... :)

out to vivo with pri sch peeps

2009-03-18T00:31:00.005+08:00

17th march

checked my results at 9am and well..
Alhamdulillah..my gpa drop but it's my fault..
so im not gona rub it in and start ranting coz it wont make any diff..
and can you believe it, my sec 3 bro is giving me lecture on my results-.-
anyway..year 2 here i come:)

meet my pri sch peeps at vivo at 5 later that day..
sadly yus nuraini and syaz cant make it..
nevertheless,we stil had uber great FUN!!!

ooh yeah.todae..18th march..
woke up late= late =no badminton for me..

sorry buva shir fatin fir..
thanks for the crappy fun games and you guys rock:)
wheee..had so much fun!!

tmr..
visit the sch band:)
I MISS THEM SO MUCH!!! I MISS SIR(s)..I MISS TRPT..I MISS MUSIC SCORES..

and fri i mite meet haz awhile..then go for night practise..woots..
next week bowling shopping movies work sleep facebook...

4 more episode...yesh uh..

MY FEET IS ITCHING TO GO OUT...
I WANA GO KL and maybe visit pokok sena sch..ehemm..
I MISS A LOT OF PEOPLE BADLY that i see them in my dreams..

people like you don't deserve friends..
once a douchebag, always a douchebag..

kak yan engagement

2009-03-15T22:36:00.010+08:00

14th MARCH 2009

Malena Marz Engagement to Yusman Yusoff

firstly,congrats to my beloved sister on her engagement..
Alhamdulillah everything went well:)
and im glad to be present on that day to witness the whole event..
im also thankful to zak and fatin who was ther wif me:)
thanks zak for snappin all the pics and fatin dearest for the cake..
reali appreciate it so much:)

more pics wil be uploaded on facebook..
and on behalf of my sister, thank you people for the well wishes..
may God bless you:)

ooh and it's 15th march..
Happy Goober 19th Birthday Irfaan!!!
i shal get a hammer for you..
ahaha..

it's funny how you end up loving people who hurt you most..
esp those you trust, one you're comfortable wif, someone you're willing to share your secrets..
even though you feel like they're stabbing you at the back,
you don't care..
you noe they're stepping all over your head,
you choose to ignore..
call me stupid but i don give a damn reali..
coz what goes ard comes ard..
this time,i'll give in coz it's your TURN..

my weekend

2009-03-09T23:45:00.000+08:00

sory for the delay..so let's update yaw..

heavy content below..
YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED-.-

3rd march 2009

met half of camfugs babes to do the 'surprise card' for dearest fatin..

4th march 2009
THE DAY ARRIVED..

we surprise her at her very own void deck..
awww..sweet rite:)
then off to VIVO CITY:)

~camwhored as usual..

~played at the arcade until this pervy guy followed us to the pet shop-.-
super annoying sia..
and we all stil had a plan to nab him..
like i wil slap him..liyun n shir pin him down..fatin wil pull his b*lls..

~princesses or wat..the real princess was fatin lah..

~and they don sell carebears at T.R.U.. ZZzz..

anyway..i had so much fun wif you camfugs..
shir liyun fitriah buva fatin..
if onli khaizurah chloe and fir can join us:(

7th march 2009

another great day..
i met two darlings todae in the afternoon..
we slack somewher east and 80% of the time was spent lepak-ing...
then it started to rain..
wen from block to block screaming like hell wen the wind blew some rain on us..
one ate cookie while the other strummed the guitar...
so wat did i do? 'compose' random songs..LOL..
UBER FUN LAH:))

then had last minute meet up wif shah ijan:)
went for shisha wif him and his couz,sufiyan..
both guys are uber crappy lah-.-
but i had such awesome time:))

and i think i saw iqmalia khairul and some familiar faces at haji lane..

and gues wat.......
4 MORE DAYS TO MY SISTER ENGAGEMENT..
E.X.C.I.T.E.D
insyallah everything goes fine..

and i have been wanting this shoe since last year:(
thanks to that korean drama,im goin nuts finding this is spore-.-

last thing..
I LOVE MY GRANDMOTHER VERY MUCH..

and i pray everyday that she'll stay healthy and strong..
may Allah give her strength and bless her..Amin..
i don wana lose you nani dearest..

hapy 18th befdae fatin

2009-03-05T00:00:00.001+08:00

im uber excited..the clock strikes 12!!
woohoo..you noe wat day is it??

TO THIS CUTE GIRL IN PURPLE..

HAPPY LEGAL 18th BIRTHDAY

FATIN DEAREST!!

i wana thank you from the bottom of my heart
for being the greatest fren ever..
seriously..
i enjoyed your company..evry single bit of it..
wen we go home together, taking the same train..
laffing our arses off wif the clique..
hang out at the sch library, studying wif buva and the others..
sharing stories of duno whatever we feel like talkin..
do silly stuff and you cracking me up wif ur uber LAME jokes..

thank you for being a dear fren fatin, listenin to me rant..
and tolerating my random and annoying presence..
so sory if i ever hurt you in the past..
it wasn intention and i din mean it..

camfugs aint the same without you ard you noe..
because..YOU are precious to us..
and you spice up the clique just by being your happy self..
lastly, I LOVE YOU FATIN NADHIRAH!!!

and to you babes..
BUVA FITRIAH SHIR LIYUN.
im proud of you guys and the effort you babes put it..
don worry, tmr wen we go out..
let's put our heads up high coz we stil have each other rite:)

IM SORRY..MY FAULT...

2009-03-03T00:44:00.002+08:00

woebegone woebegone..please be gone..

who are you?
what are you?
why are you doing this?
when are you gona stop this shit?

LOL..random-.-im uber uber bored you ditweeds..

~i hate this feeling..it's reali reali bad..i feel aweful like FUBAR..only God noes..

hapy 18th befdae fana

2009-03-02T11:47:00.000+08:00

to this beautiful lady..

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY FANA!!!!
may your life be filled with happiness and joy..
when things get tough, i'll be there by your side:)
infact we all will..teehee..
I LOVE YOU BABE!!!

ps:sorry for stealing this pic of yours..lol

sad nyerrr...

2009-03-01T23:48:00.002+08:00

i bought an umbrella todae due to the weather..translucent white:)
the saviour of my day..it made me walk all the way frm peace mall to parkmall..

anyway...
the stupid webbie haven upload the last few episode of boys before flowers-.-
and i din noe nabeel watchin that drama too..
cool kape..

don read this if you're not a korean-drama freak..
it's about biting the hand that feeds you kinda thing..

this cruel girl taking advantage of the poor innocent soul..
then backstab her..without feeling guilty..

she on the other hand the protagonist is just too nice..
despite knowing that 'girl' is bullying her and forcing her to do stuf,
she stil wana be that bully fren..
WHY?? because that bully is her only fren..
and that same bully stood up for her wen SHE was getting bullied..

she loves him so much but was afraid to tell him..
afraid he would reject her,leave her and not befren her..
His presence was always known to her..
yes,she noticed him all the time..but does he..?

the bully noes this secret..but she's bein a fucking arse to her fren..
stealing him away from her..

HE was her happines..HER first love..the ONLY guy she ever fell deeply for..
and that bully is a GREEDY PIG..
an INSIGNIFICANT BRAT who wants everything the poor girl posesses..
a SORE LOSER who is not contented wif her life..

ooh yea..what's the title of the drama?
beats me..korean drama has almost the same kind of story..

randommm

2009-02-28T22:02:00.004+08:00

I was tagged by buva..and haz i tink..

TEN ARE YOUS
1. Are you single - yeap:)
2. Are you happy - shud be..i guess..
3. Are you bored - like duh,tats why im doin this-.-
4. Are you fair - nope..
5. Are you Italian - i wished..ahahaa..
6. Are you intelligent - i don tink so but ppl ard me thinks i am-.-
7. Are you honest - hmm..depends on what kind of situation im facing.
8. Are you nice - SUPER NICE:)
9. Are you Irish - errr.. -.- get me a clover..
10. Are you Asian - uhuhh.. and glad to be one:)

TEN FACTS
1. Full Name - Mardiana bte Marzuki
2. Nicknames - dee/deear/mardi/dina/diana/marijuana/banana/bachen/ted baker/SUZUKI-.-
3. Birth place - thomson medical centre
4. Hair color - dark brown but i dyed it ash brown recently
5. Natural hair style - used to be straight but it gets wavy as i grow older..so i rebond it
6. Eye Color - dark brown..
7. Birthday - 9 JUNE 1991
(number 8 is missing.)
9. Favorite color - purple <333
10. One place you'd like to visit - Mecca..

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Have you ever been in love - i believed it's infatuation..
2. Do you believe in love at first sight - hmm..maybe..
3. Do you currently have a crush? - yeah but i gave up already i gues :s
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally - erm ya:(
5. Have you ever broken someone's heart - at the moment, no..
6. Have you ever had your heart broken - uhuhh..
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them - tats the thing,im too scared to say it..
8. Are you afraid of commitment - nahh..
9. Who was the last person you hugged - shirlene
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? - buva

TEN THIS OR THAT
1. Love or lust - love<333
2. Hard liquor or beer - none?
3. Cats or dogs - here kitty kitty..
4. A few best friends or any regular friends - definately a few besties..
5. Creamy or Crunchy - damn it..creamy but crunchy can?
6. Pencil or Pen - both:)
7. Wild night out or romantic night in - wild romantic night? LOL
8. Money or Happiness - money then happiness..
9. Night or day - night
10. IM or phone - phoneeeee

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out - nope.. if i wana go out,i just go out..
2. Seen a polar bear - yeah it bit my arse..wait a minute..tat was a monkey..
3. Done something you regret - errr.. yaa..
4. Bungee jumped - almost until i realise i was wearin a dress-.-
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor - wat kind of food?
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker - jaw breaker say wat??
7. Been caught naked - when i was a baby..
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back - you mean best fren n gd fren rite-.-
9. Cried because you lost a pet - because it died yes..
10. Wanted to disappear - uhuhh..i gues so

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes - smile..
2. Light or dark hair - dark hair is sexy..
3. Hugs or kisses - hugs.. a kiss on the forehead is uber sweet though:)
4. Shorter or taller - tall pls..
5. Intelligence or attraction - 50-50 ah..pls uh pipty pipty arh..
6. Topman or Zara - half naked with renoma boxers.. KIDDIN..topman lah
7. Funny or serious -both..
8. Older or Younger- older..
9. Outgoing or quiet - outgoin..
10. Sweet or Bad -uber uber uber sweeeeeeeeeet..

TEN HAVE YOUS
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - ya..
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour - yeap and once til 6am..
3. Ever tried walking on your hands - in my dreams you mean
4. Ever been to a rock concert - soon:)
5. Ever been on a cheerleading team - don laff you arses..
6. Ever been on a dance team - i gues so..
7. Ever been on a sports team - you mean sports day kinda thing?
8. Ever been in a drama play/production - yeahh..kindergarten
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? - BMW and M.B both at street racing in facebook:)))
10. Ever been in a rap video? - lalalaaa

TEN LASTS
1. Last phone call you made - zakariah
2. Last person you kissed - HAFIZ
3. Last person you hung out with - buva fatin shir liyun
4. Last time you worked - few mth back as tuition teacher..i miss tat job:(
5. Last person you talked to - my elder brother..
6. Last person you IM'd - buva/haffiz
7. Last person you texted - shah ijan
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with - fatin
9. Last person/thing you missed - malena,my sister..
10. Last website visited - blogger

anybody wana do,do kay :)

fuck lahhh..

2009-02-28T11:38:00.004+08:00

i was all ready to go out at 11.15am wen suddenly...

i received a msg..
gues wat?? the outin cancelled..

@#$%^&*)*&^%$#@#$%^
LOL...

and the thing was, i was all set to go out..
so now..im askin anyone who is damn free to go out wif me...
booooyahhhhh...

if not..
i shall spend my day...............

cleanin my room..
do house work..
facebook-ing..
bloggin..
korean drama-ing.
chattin..
sewing..
stitchin..
ceramic-makin..

err..the last three is crap lah-.-

and i had a dream..it was black and orange..stick..ice-cream stick??
fish nets..and round puffer fish.. WEIRD...

ooh ya..i had fun video-calling wif buva..lol
I MISS MY POLY PEEPS SUDDENLY:(

boys before flowers

2009-02-27T00:39:00.005+08:00

Incase you haven notice..
EXAMS ARE PRACTICALLY OVER FOR THIS SEM!!
and in a few months time.. we're all gona be in YEAR 2!!! hopefully..

SEE THIS BEAUTIFUL RAINBOW.. i captured this pic while in the train wif fatin:)
sisterly quality time i must say..ehem..

anyway,after the last paper ended,
shir liyun fatin buva and i decided to just chill out..
and as always,those 3 are missing-.-

~the onli decent pic of us i tink:)

watever it is..we had such awesome time together..
like playin in the rain,laffing our arse off, making a fool of ourselves..
until this apek had to knock his umbrella on all our heads..
RMB THE BRIDGE PEEPS?? hahhaa...

im sticking back to the old habits.. korean drama..!!
that Lee Min Ho is so cute can..and the tea guy, Kim Bum.. gahhh..

there's so many things i wana do and i need to do during the "long" break..
my SIS engagement, sch involvement thingy -.- and a new job?
i want to visit the SCH BAND,
i wana chill out wif S.FREAKS, CAMFUGS,
SEC SCH PEEPS, PRI SCH FRENS,NORA,IJAN,AMINAH and gang..
i wana spend time wif the people i love..
ooh ya..I NEED TO CLEAN MY ROOM-.-

i miss those long distant late nite calls til 6am:(
and i hate the fact that we're ALL giving up..

khaizurah befdae

2009-02-26T00:01:00.000+08:00

TO THIS GIRL..
don worry,she's not dead yet-.-

HAPPY LEGAL 18th BEFDAE!!!
I LOVE YOU DEAREST KHAIZURAH!!

and may you kick your lazy attitude away..
spend more time wif us camfugs..
errm..don skip lectures??
ooh ya..
stop saying vulgarities kay pantat..
IF NOT,IM SO GONA BITE YOU:)

anyway..all the best in everything you do..
i'll always be there to help you out:)
infact all of us will be there for you..
stay naughty but sweet yaw!!!

ONE MORE PAPER

2009-02-23T23:26:00.003+08:00

okay this is random..
i dreamt of mave and me cheat in a microB test..
stupid dream really..

and buva told me she dreamt of jon and her cheat in a test too..
FREAKY OR WAT..

biochem paper was reali MEAN to us-.-

JUST ONE MORE TO GO..

PSSTT..you wana noe something?
my beloved sister is getting engaged soon:))))